Motherhood

Endless nights, endless crying, endless cooking, endless cleaning. It’s all endless, right? You get the dishes washed just to come back 5 minutes later to see the sink full again. The clothes are washed, folded and put away and you walk past the laundry hamper on your way to the next chore only to see it at max capacity once again. Motherhood is a full time job in itself. We’re taking care of the littles and the chores, all the while trying to be fit, and not lose ourselves in the depths of dry shampoo and black leggings. We act as detectives, always searching for missing socks, homework, and our sanity. We’re personal assistants always making sure that our kids go to all the doctors appointments, dental checkups, birthday parties, sports and extracurricular activities. And some of us do all of this on top of having jobs. Sometimes we can get lost in all the stress that motherhood entails. I know, it happens to me.

But what puts it all into perspective and keeps me pushing on is the little moments. The glee on my sons face when he sits down to eat breakfast and sees his plate full of his favorite foods. The joy in my daughters eyes when she’s telling me about a birthday party that I just picked her up from. When it’s 3am and I look down to see the bright blue eyes and smile on my 5 month olds face after she was just comforted and fed. When I have a sick kiddo and the only thing they want is to be held and comforted by me.

When I come to the realization that God gifted me this opportunity to be all the things to these little humans, it literally makes my heart burst with gratitude. Let this be a small reminder to soak in all the moments, because these kids, they won’t be little forever. Motherhood is hard, y’all. But us moms, we’re superheroes.

Guilt

Lately my mind keeps pondering how Peter must have been feeling after that rooster crowed. Guilt for sure. Shame, lousy, and pretty pathetic. Jesus told Peter what was going to happen, that Peter would deny Jesus three times before the rooster crowed after Jesus was arrested. And just like every other time Jesus made a prediction like that, it happened. It makes me think of all the times I’ve felt guilty. Guilt over yelling at my kids, or not being so nice to my husband. Guilt over bad decisions I made in the past. Guilt makes you feel pretty down. It’s a sickening feeling in the pit of your stomach that continuously gnaws at you. What amazes and astonishes me, is that when Jesus rose and saw Peter again, Peter was instantly forgiven. Instantly. Just like that. Clean slate. No hard feelings. The same way that Jesus forgives us when we repent. If we ask for forgiveness, we have to forgive ourselves as well and let go of the guilt. And if you’re forgiven, don’t keep bringing up your sins of the past. Use them as lessons learned and let them go. Only you have the will power to make better choices and change for the good. Praying is absolutely necessary but you have to be willing to put in the work as well. Be obedient to the Lord. Read your Bible, spend time with Him. He has a plan for you, but if you’re not close to Him, you’ll never know what it is.

You Are Not Alone

Did any of you Michael Jackson fans sing the title of this post like I did? I thought of the title for this post and had to look up the lyrics to the song because it immediately popped into my head. Michael Jackson wasn’t wrong, y’all. You are not alone. Whatever season we’re in right now, there are others who are right there with us. But most of all, Jesus is right there with us. Friends, I don’t know what you’re facing today, maybe a broken heart, or financial problems, marital problems, addictions, distractions, YOU are never alone. Reach out to a friend or support group, I promise there are others who are going through or have gone through the same season you’re in right now. Are you possibly a stay-at-home mom or work from home mom who is craving connection with other adults? Reach out! There are play groups in most cities now, look for them. If you’re an introvert like me, sometimes that can be so hard to do, but take that step, you won’t regret it. Maybe you’re not getting any younger (aging gracefully of course!) and you’re in a season of waiting for that special someone, reach out to singles groups, look for others in your area that are in the same season. I am not at all saying that your friends that aren’t in the same season as you cannot be of any help, but it’s good to go through things with people who understand.

If you know of someone who is going through a tough season right now, reach out to them. You might not know firsthand what they’re going through but sometimes a listening ear or a new perspective is all that is needed. Jesus made us for community, and as much as some of us would like to, we aren’t made to sit around with just our pets for company. We were made to get out there and seek connection. Even Jesus had community! He traveled along with 12 disciples. You could be someone’s missing puzzle piece or find the best friend that you never knew you needed! Sometimes what we’re looking for is closer that we thought. As much as social media can keep you distracted from more important things (i.e., your kids,) it can also be used as a tool for connection. Take that step, you got this!

Sinner, Sinner, No Chicken Dinner

The Sin Cycle. No, it’s not a setting on your washing machine. It is a setting in our lives from time to time though. It happens when we stray away from Jesus and get stuck in a swirly pool of up to no good. We knew God’s plan before we got sucked in, but we chose to do our own thing, anyway. It gets to the point that we can’t take anymore and God, being the rescuer and redeemer that He is, swoops in and saves the day. But not without us learning some lessons. We then repent and thank God for His love and grace. We receive forgiveness and for a while everything is dandy. We’re reading our Bibles and praying like we should, we’re living in purpose and helping others when we can. Then Satan comes along in the form of something shiny and we decide that “hey, maybe the grass is greener over there” and against our better judgement we fall once more into the pool of sin.

It happens to all of us, whether we want to admit it or not. The sins that suck us in are unique to everyone. You know, those temptations that you try to so hard to resist, the addictions that you won’t call an addiction, but in actuality that’s what it is. The things that pull us away from talking to Jesus and reading our Bibles. Distractions-scrolling, binge watching Netflix, gaming, you get the picture. You know what though, we have the power to break free. That power lies within us because Jesus gave His life on that cross to save us, from ourselves. We have the power to wake up every morning and talk to God before we step foot out of our bed. We have the power to continually speak to Him throughout the day. To ask Him to help us when we feel we’re being sucked in again. We have the power to read our Bibles, which in turn will keep us in tune with His word. We have the power to kneel beside our beds at night and pray, pray, pray for His guidance, wisdom and help. He can break the cycle folks. But you have to let Him in.

The Bible study that goes along with The Chosen series, does a wonderful job of illustrating the Sin Cycle right from the beginning. Please, please, please start the series, you won’t regret it! Until next time, “don’t let those praying knees get lazy,”(wise words from Lee Brice.)

Future So Bright

Ahhh, there is so much that I want to share with you all. I have a list of blog topics written down. It’s amazing how the closer you draw near to God, the closer he draws near to you. I’ve made a vow this year to not spend so much time scrolling (see previous blog post,) and to be more intentional with my time. In doing this, I’ve been able to spend more time with Jesus. Y’all He is so great. Even though I was going through my sin cycle once again (that will be a future post, so be on the lookout,) and neglecting spending time with Him last year, He still forgave me just like that. We are on day 6 of 2023 and day 6 of me focusing on Him and just, WOW. He has filled me with so many ideas for this blog and for my future. Buckle up buttercups, it’s going to be a great year!

If you haven’t watched The Chosen series, you really need to get it on it. My wonderful husband and fellow blogger over at Common Sense Reborn gifted yours truly with “The Chosen” season 1 and 2 interactive Bible Studies for Christmas. They are wonderful to have and follow along with as you watch the series. Even if you’ve already watched seasons 1 and 2 like me, there is still much to be learned from completing them. If you’re looking for a great book to read, look no further than The Esther Anointing. I’m literally only 36% of the way in and it’s already extraordinarily blessed my life. It will amp you up and get you excited for the plans and calling God has placed on your life.

Bust out your Bibles folks and make this the year that you go all in for Jesus.

Confession Time

Whoa. The year 2022 flew by. It was a big one for my family and me. New baby, new house, new neighbors, new friends. All good things, thankfully! I do have a confession though, I got distracted wait too much this year. Those distractions caused me to not prioritize my time. The main distraction-scrolling. It’s so easy to get distracted when your distraction is scrolling. Whether it be, Facebook, Instagram, Tik-tok (which is something I do not have,) or even scrolling Amazon (I’m so bad about this!) Once that thumb starts going it’s hard to get it to stop. That’s where discipline comes in. Discipline is one of my main goals for 2023. Discipline with my nutrition, exercise, and my time. Thinking back on all the missed opportunities of spending time with Jesus because I was too busy scrolling literally makes me cringe. Along with discipline, my next goal is intention. Intention with my time. Am I spending time with Jesus every day? Am I spending time with my kids and focusing on them in that moment? Am I intentionally eating and moving my body? During the next few days, I will be setting myself up for a successful 2023! Getting my Bible studies ready, along with my exercise programs and preparing my mind to focus. 2023 is going to be a good one! What are some goals that you have set for the new year?

Three’s Company

Phew! The last 3 months have been a whirlwind of no sleep and baby spit up. I have been operating in zombie mode and the post-partum brain fog has been real! But amongst all the chaos that comes with the blessing of a new baby are many moments of miracles. Seeing our oldest two kiddos, who were 11 and 5 at that time of our youngest’s birth, evolve into the sweetest big sister and big brother both doting on their tiny sibling has been nothing short of heart melting. They will both gladly drop everything to jump in and entertain and cuddle her when needed. Watching them in these moments and soaking in the warmth that they bring makes the chaos calm. As mothers we often get caught up in the to-do list of everyday life. And the to-do list grows when you add more kiddos. It’s not only the piles of laundry and dishes, sweeping the crumbs and mounds of dog hair up off the floor or making sure that lunches are packed that can feel so overwhelming, but also trying to make sure that you’re giving each child the one-on-one time that they crave. In an ideal world, this one-on-one time would like planning a special day with each kiddo by themselves, without siblings tagging along. But honestly, when you work, and have a spouse who works long hours, this is not always possible. So, every time my 6-year-old comes up to me and says “mommy, watch this,” or “come look what I made,” or when my 11-year-old wants to show me something that she found on Amazon or a tumbling trick that she has been working on, I will try hard to drop what I am doing and focus on them in that moment. These are the memories they will hold on to. Honestly, the chores can wait. But this time that I have with my kids at the very ages they are right now, it won’t wait. And truth be told, I don’t want to miss it!

Facades

I’m baaack! It’s been several months since my last post. Truth is, I haven’t felt like writing. For those who don’t know, I am pregnant with #3. Having other kids along with being considered “advanced maternal age” (at 36,) has me feeling all sorts of way, but mostly tired. Anyway, I hope you all have been doing well. I’m writing today about something that has been on my heart a lot lately. It’s real and raw, so bare with me….

Let’s face it, we’re all broken. In some way, we all have weaknesses and struggles. Some we may not talk about. But we all have them. No matter how an Instagram reel portrays someone’s “perfect” life, trust me, it’s far from that. I am not saying that to be a Debbie downer, but it’s true. I feel a lot of times outsiders looking in view someone’s life through the flawless lens that their social media portrays and it causes jealousy and depression. It leads to the comparison game which is unhealthy in itself, but is also detrimental to your mental health and your relationships. Now, hear me out, I am not at all saying that you shouldn’t watch Instagram reels or follow people on social media, or stop posting your whole life if you’re into that, but please, please guard your heart. Know who you are, and what God has called you to do so that you can stay away from the negativity that viewing these things can bring. Every single one of us is created perfectly in the eyes of our Lord, we all bring our own uniqueness to the table. If you’re having a hard time viewing yourself in a positive light please reach out. I’ve been there, and still struggle from time to time. Reach out to someone you love and trust, reach out to me, but especially reach out to Jesus. Read your Bible. There’s so much truth in there about who you are and why you were created. You my friend, are worthy of love and all good things. Look past the facades, don’t play the comparison game and love yourself and those around you.

Guilt

Lately my mind keeps pondering how Peter must have been feeling after that rooster crowed. Guilt for sure. Shame, lousy, and pretty pathetic. Jesus told Peter what was going to happen, that Peter would deny Jesus three times before the rooster crowed after Jesus was arrested. And just like every other time Jesus made a prediction like that, it happened. It makes me think of all the times I’ve felt guilty. Guilt over yelling at my kids, or not being so nice to my husband. Guilt over bad decisions I made in the past. Guilt makes you feel pretty down. It’s a sickening feeling in the pit of your stomach that continuously gnaws at you. What amazes and astonishes me, is that when Jesus rose and saw Peter again, Peter was instantly forgiven. Instantly. Just like that. Clean slate. No hard feelings. The same way that Jesus forgives us when we repent. If we ask for forgiveness, we have to forgive ourselves as well and let go of the guilt. And if you’re forgiven, don’t keep bringing up your sins of the past. Use them as lessons learned and let them go. Only you have the will power to make better choices and change for the good. Praying is absolutely necessary but you have to be willing to put in the work as well. Be obedient to the Lord. Read your Bible, spend time with Him. He has a plan for you, but if you’re not close to Him, you’ll never know what it is.

Cringeworthy Memories

Well it’s been a minute since I’ve had the chance to sit down and write. I went part-time at work so I was thinking that I would have more time to do this, however things just got a bit busier. But here I am! I hope you all are having a wonderful 2022 so far. One morning last week, as I was in the middle of my morning routine, getting the kids breakfast ready, packing snacks, etc. my brain took me back in time to memories that I am not particularly proud of. Things that I said or did in the past started popping up in my head. Grudges that I held onto for way too long, hurtful things that I did to people close to me, the list goes on. I had no idea at the time what triggered it, but there they were, moment after moment, saying we’re still here! Don’t forget about us. You know the memories I’m speaking of, they’re the same kind of cringeworthy Facebook statuses that keep coming up on my Timehop from 12 years ago. The type of things that make me wonder what in the actual heck was I thinking. The truth is, those memories pop in our heads for a reason. They’re meant to throw us off track and forget all of the good that we have going on. It’s in those moments that we have to pump the brakes and remember how far we have come in our journey and how hard we have worked in becoming the better versions we are today. If we spend the rest of our lives dwelling in the past we are not living out the callings God has placed on our lives for this very day, this very moment even. We are depriving ourselves of the joy that each day brings by letting those thoughts seep in and linger. Let the past stay in the past, where it belongs. If Jesus can forgive us, then we can forgive ourselves.